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I think I might delete my Myspace page in March. I don't have much use for it anymore. Everyone's on Facebook and Twitter now. I still don't plan on joining Facebook anytime soon, but Twitter is my new home.

Yesterday, Tito Jackson responded to me on Twitter. For real! Here's how it happened: whenever he comes on, he and the fans call it Tito Time. Yes, he and his brothers really do care about the fans, and really do talk to them, unlike most celebrities. Tito said he had to leave soon and get back to work at the studio. I sent a message to him saying "We want more Tito Time haha." Then a little bit later I see on my timeline that he responded to me! This is what he said, "hey because i read this i am gonna hang out a little more cool with you?" I was so happy he replied to me. You can see it in his tweets here. I'm @edog85 and yes that's his real account. http://twitter.com/titojackson5

He also replied to some other people too. He likes to flirt with the ladies lol. It was so funny because after that he left to go to the studio, but then he came back a couple hours later. He said that he escaped the guys at the studio and was hiding out on the roof so he could talk to us again. LOL he's addicted to Twitter!

It made my day. I totally didn't expect him to reply to me. I was surprised. :D All the Jackson bros are so nice. Tito, Marlon, Jermaine and Jackie all share one separate account too because of the show they did Jacksons Family Dynasty. Jermaine and Marlon tweet the most. You rarely get to see Jackie probably because he's shy and reserved like Michael. They rock.

The other day I sent a message to Orianthi Panagris on Twitter. She was nice enough to be talking to fans there, so I thought I'd send her message. Orianthi was Michael Jackson's guitarist on This Is It. And she really is a fantastic guitar player. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Orianthi My message to her was that I had bought her album on her birthday (I really did, but that was kind of coincidental) and that I hope she has a nice day. And she responded back! She said "Thank You." I thought that was pretty nice. She was answering the fans' questions too, all while she was having her hair done, so I guess she had the time to do that.

As I said before most of my followers are MJ fans from all around the world. But I think about half of them are about half my age lol. I think that's really great though that Michael's music is reaching the youth. That's how his legacy will stay alive.

There was a fantastic tribute to him on the Grammys last night. Celine Dion, Usher, Carrie Underwood, Smokey Robinson, and Jennifer Hudson all sang along with Michael to "Earth Song" which was full on in 3D. Behind them played the short film that was to be in the This Is It concerts. It was so incredible. They put their soul into the song, and the 3D was amazing.

Then after, two of Michael's children, Prince and Paris took the stage to accept Michael's lifetime achievement award. It's the first time they've been seen in the public eye since the memorial on July 7th. You could tell that they were nervous. I know this had to be really hard for them, but they both said what needed to be said -- that they will continue to spread his message, which is to heal the world. They were very composed and looked well. I can tell they are strong like their father.

But it still serves as a reminder of the great loss. He was "gone too soon" and should have been there at the Grammys. I'm sure he is very proud of his kids.

I finished Machinarium the other day. It's a cute little game made in Flash, but I have to say it was possibly more aggravating than it was fun. Then again, I'm not too fond of heavy heavy puzzle games. It was hard, but somehow I managed to get through it. I think the ending left an opening for a sequel, but I really don't have any desire to play one if it comes out, unless it's completely different. This is not a game I would want to play again because I was practically ripping my hair out. It's still very cute though.

Next up will be Art of Murder 2: Hunt for the Puppeteer.

I think Obama is doing a fine job so far. I think it's too soon to tell how much he has done. He's only been in office for a year. My opinion of him remains the same as when he was first elected into office.

I'm now being followed by Genevieve Jackson (Randy Jackson's daughter, Michael Jackson's niece) on Twitter. :)

And I got This Is It on Blu-Ray too. Woo!

Ok my brother and his gf are starting to drive me a little nuts again. Kourtnei often feels this need to run the house. She and my brother have taken over the kitchen. They want to do all the cooking and take care of the dishes. They've axed me from my job of putting the dishes away and now want me instead to take care of cleaning the bathroom. I don't like this one bit. >:O Also they've come up with this weird rule that either you eat every single thing they cooked or you don't get to eat at all. WTF kind of rule is this? Who's running this house again? I swear sometimes I want to strangle her. >:O With L.O.V.E though of course. :P

But anyway my mom decided to write up a contract (because Kourtnei is not trying to look for another place to live at all) to be moved out of the house and find another place to live by July 31st. And I guess my mom is going to show her this contract on February 1st. It kind of talks about the burden my brother and she have been on our family. Together they've cost us a lot of money. Problem is she's got the two dogs and two cats and a hamster. So once again she'll have to find a place that will accommodate her animals because she won't part with them.

I don't mind her being here so much, except the dogs can be an issue sometimes and I do like dogs (I love our dog Luke), but sometimes it's just a pain to deal with them. And also I really really don't like that I always seem to have to fight for a TV around here. My brother and his gf are watching on the big TV all day, every day. Sometimes I might like to be able to watch TV in there. It was great last week because they were gone visiting a friend, and I loved that the TV was free to use.

Kourtnei works at the pet store, but that obviously doesn't give her much money. She pays rent, but there have been times where she instead used that money to buy expensive things, like a new laptop, instead of using it to pay rent. So she has taken advantage of our family in that way.

Well, I didn't want to turn this into a rant, but I can't say I'll really miss her when and if she moves out. But it probably won't matter because she'll probably be coming over here a lot again even if she does get a new place. It will probably be a long while before the two of them can live together, if at all. They definitely wouldn't be able to afford it now. My brother's still in college. He'd have to get a job first. I think their best chance would probably be to move out of state because it's so expensive here in California.

I really don't know. I think what happens after death is meant to be a mystery for most people for a reason. What about people who have NDEs? They wind up having some idea of what happens after they die, and it's often a life changing experience. Would I want to experience that? I'm really not sure. I would say no for now. If it were meant to happen, then it would happen.

Yes, it's about MJ again (a little essay of sorts)

I have to admit that I wasn't a die-hard fan of Michael Jackson before he passed away, but I still considered myself a fan. I always enjoyed his music, but I didn't realize how little I actually did know before his passing.

I was checking the news one morning on Yahoo, and saw that one of the headlines was that a new Michael Jackson song had leaked. Curious, I clicked the story to hear the song. The song was “A Place With No Name” and I thought it was great. I thought it was fun to hear a new Michael Jackson song. This was actually the start of a new journey of discovering and rediscovering Michael's music.

Shortly afterward I decided I wanted to add some more songs to my iTunes. Embarrassingly, the only song that I had by Michael on there was “Thriller.” So, at first I was just going to see what his hit songs were and add those to my playlist. I don't know what made me change my mind to seek out his other songs as well, but I'm glad I did. I just made a decision to track down and hear all of his songs. I happened to come across a list of all of them, including the unreleased songs. So, I went through—I made a decision that I would search for them on Youtube, listen, and add the ones I liked to my playlist. Thinking back now, I find it funny that I had the thought that maybe I wouldn't like some of Michael Jackson's songs.

Hearing all these new songs and rediscovering old ones was an incredible experience for me. Before Michael's death I knew about 25 of his songs, including the Jackson 5. A few of those songs were some I had heard often, but I had no idea it was Michael singing them. Several of those songs were also songs I hadn't heard for years, and I had just forgotten about them. For instance, “Will You Be There” was one of those. Discovering the new songs was a great joy to me. It was like uncovering buried treasure. I got to hear them all at once. Instead of say waiting with anticipation for a new album to come out to hear new songs, I got to hear them every day for about a week. That in of itself is exciting, but I realize there is something special about awaiting a new album. It's the buildup. Michael knew this well. Don't give the fans new songs too often because the longer you wait for and anticipate something, the more thrilling the pay-off will be once you get to hear those new songs. You know the saying: “Good things come to those who wait.”

Looking back in retrospect, finding all the new songs is now a blur to me. I now have trouble remembering what my feelings were starting from hearing the first note all the way to the last note of a new song. It's as though I feel like I've been listening to these songs for years now, even though it's only been 6 months. There is one song in particular that I do remember my thoughts about when I first heard it. The song is “They Don't Care About Us.” When I first listened to that song I was quite taken by surprise. It introduced me to a side of Michael I had never heard before. It was raw. It really tells it like it is. This song just about summed up my feelings I had had about society for years now. I liked it and I had no idea Michael sang songs like this. Upon my second listen, it became an instant favorite.

Out of all of the songs I listened to, there was only one I didn't add to my iTunes right away. That was “Little Susie” because it scared me. It's a really dark song. I think at some point of going through the the list of songs, I had the thought “Ah to hell with it. There isn't going to be a song that Michael Jackson did that I won't like. So I'm probably just going add them all anyway.” And that's still true. I love all of his songs each in their own special way.

I'm kind of sad now that my quest is mostly over (until more unreleased songs start coming out). I still wish I could have done this much earlier than I did, but I'm glad I did do it rather than never at all because I really would have missed out.

You know it might be a sign of the apocalypse when they are issuing tornado warnings for the Orange County and LA areas. Said warnings were canceled, however it makes for a very interesting day. I tell you when I heard that, I was a little bit scared. They don't build houses with basements here in Southern California, so if a tornado ever touched down here, we would have nowhere to go. In all my 24 years of living here I've never heard anything like a tornado warning issued. That's unbelievably crazy! The rain was absolutely torrential yesterday afternoon. I've never seen it like that before. We even had some hail too. I've heard this is not the worst either. It's supposed to be worse today. It hasn't started raining again yet, but it's on its way to come back with a vengeance. Then I think it's supposed to all end after Friday. This is one crazy storm.

So I've come to really like Twitter. I didn't expect it to become a place where I mostly just promote MJ, but that's what happened. :P Almost all my followers are MJ fans. Now it's almost too much. :P dum-de-dum haven't been doing much else.

Please read this http://www.sawfnews.com/Gossip/62205.aspx

and also this http://www.reflectionsonthedance.com/Interview-with-Aphrodite.html

So Haiti is in really bad shape right now. Here's a good place to send a donation to http://www.yele.org/

and visit this link for more ideas on how you can help http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2007/impact/

My heart goes out to those devastated by this disaster

Today I showed my psychologist my assessment I had done when I was 5 to 6 years old with a child development specialist. She made a copy of it and is going to read it later. I had read it before hand and found some of the things in there really fascinating. Most of it is about my poor fine and gross motor skills at the time. That was the whole reason I was being assessed. My kindergarten teacher was concerned about it so she told the principal of the school, who then referred me for an evaluation. I still have trouble in that area, but I had physical therapy when I was 7 that significantly improved my motor skills. Here's some other interesting things I found
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I had my second meet up with the SA group today, and then I was pretty much gone the rest of the day. It was good. We played this game, which is kind of like how they do "speed dating." I was a little uncomfortable at first, but I thought it went well. I talked more than I ever have in many years. I was kind of starting to lose my voice lol. It was a bit grating repeating the same answers over and over (and also repeating myself because it was so noisy in the room) but I didn't mind it too much. It was really good practice for me. Initiating conversations is my worst problem. This activity was for ways to make small talk. I can do ok once I'm in the conversation, but it's starting it that's the problem. So this was helpful to me. Oh yeah, and there's also a guy in the group who has Asperger's like me.

I would choose macaroni and cheese and chocolate. As to how soon I would get tired of them, I think it would depend on the brand or way it's prepared. Like the way my dad usually prepares macaroni and cheese--I could probably not get tired of it for a long long while, maybe not ever. I think chocolate might take me a shorter while to get tired of. After having something sweet for a while, I want something salty.

I'm playing this cute little puzzle/adventure game hybrid right now called Machinarium. I'm not sure what the story is about exactly. It stars a little robot trying to make his way through the city. I'm taken away by the animations, it's really fun so far. Here's my gameplay video of it



My first official game of 2010.

Now here is my final list. My movies I look forward to in 2010. With pictures! Of course I know some of these might not wind up being released this year (and I'm a bit clueless as to what is actually coming out), but here it is
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Now, here's the second of my lists: My favorite movies of 2009. Again I didn't get to see everything I wanted to see that was released this year (example being Sherlock Holmes, which I saw today). Anyway here's my personal list

Coraline
Watchmen
Knowing
The Soloist
X-Men Origins: Wolverine
Star Trek
Terminator Salvation
Up
Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs
Julie and Julia
District 9
9
Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs
This Is It
2012
The Princess and the Frog
Avatar

Number 1 favorite movie of the year for me was This Is It of course. Come on, you know I wasn't going to pick anything else. ;)

Ok, here's the first of my lists. This is for my favorite books of 2009. I read a record (for me anyway)of 40 books. A few of those were actually rereads (I'm probably not going to include those) and a few I read through Daily Lit, a site that sends you classic lit via email. Here's the list of my favorites out of those

The Well of Ascension by Brandon Sanderson
Coraline by Neil Gaiman
Watchmen by Alan Moore
The Hero of Ages by Brandon Sanderson
The Tales of Beedle Bard by J.K. Rowling
The Crown Conspiracy by Michael J. Sullivan
A Game of Thrones by George R.R. Martin
Avempartha by Michael J. Sullivan
The Divine Invasion by Phillip K. Dick
The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss
Singularity Sky by Charles Stross
Sabriel by Garth Nix
Warbreaker by Brandon Sanderson
The Last Unicorn by Peter S. Beagle
Michael Jackson Conspiracy by Aphrodite Jones
The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka
Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe
The Sword-Edged Blonde by Alex Bledsoe
Pandemonium by Daryl Gregory
Moonwalk by Michael Jackson
It's Beginning to Look A Lot Like Zombies by Michael P. Spradlin
Nyphron Rising by Michael J. Sullivan
The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

It was actually a very good year for reading for me. What will 2010 bring? I can tell you one thing: My "to read" pile isn't going to get any smaller.

Happy New Year's everyone! I'm actually looking forward to this year being over and the new decade starting because last decade was kind of a lot of mental torture for me. I hope 2010 will be a fresh start. I'm trying to feel a bit more optimistic.

I don't usually make New Year's resolutions, but my silly one for this year is to play more computer games because I slacked off in the second half of this year. Got too involved in other things.

That's the only thing I'm concerned with. Well and to try to be a better, kinder person. Working on altering my personality chip. :P

Check this out: I never knew Neil Gaiman wrote a short story about Cthulhu. This is awesome! http://www.tor.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=blog&id=58523 Don't forget to feed the Shoggoth!