dazed_girl

Hmmm...I would say a photographic memory. That would be pretty darn cool.

This is undeniably my favorite performance of "Earth Song."

I went to Grammy's house yesterday to do some new work for her. First I did some simple task on one of her documents on her computer. Then we started going through her computer desk drawers. She has all these cards in there. I'm talking like Hallmark cards. She has tons and tons of them. She keeps getting them for free from making donations to various organizations. She even stopped giving donations, but they still give her the cards. So she has all these blank cards that filled up her drawers. I said, "Can't you tell them to take you off their list?" She said, "No." O_o So we spent a little over an hour sorting through the cards. She did want to keep some of them. I said to her on the way back driving me home that she could have opened up a store with all the cards she has. lol I might even borrow a few myself for Christmas or something. Would save me from having to buy or make a card for my family. Still not done with the drawers though. I go back next Tuesday.

So I got $5 for doing that. I have this money lying around, but I don't really buy too much so it just sits there. What's it going to be like when I have a job? I guess a good percentage of the money I earn would be saved. Living simple works best for me. I do however want to get these two things, I hope today

I just got back from the psychologist and I can tell already this is going to go nowhere. I just got the same old bs homework: talk to three strangers, by the time of my next appointment. I know I'm not going to do that. This is not going to work. I wish my mom understood that. I know I'm going to wind up pissing this therapist off...probably by my next appointment. Just watch. And that will be that. I already left with a pretty snarky attitude. I was laughing and rolling my eyes at the ridiculousness of it all.

The point is I know myself better than any therapist ever could, and I know what I'm going to do and not do. *wishing I could just poof into non-existence and not deal with this shit anymore*

Of course I think it would help more if the therapist could ask better specific questions, or else you're not going to get much out of me. I don't want homework, I just want to understand my own thoughts and be understood.

I can't believe my mom wants to waste her money on this again.

A few days ago my mom went and made an appointment for me to see a new psychologist without even telling me! Well maybe it's because if she did ask me, I would automatically say no. But that's er...kinda a breach of trust there. But I don't really care. I just don't see how she thinks this is going to help. I haven't had much success with psychologists in the past. She mentioned Asperger's on the phone and the lady said "Oh well I can refer you to someone who specializes in that if you want." My mom said, "Well, let's just try this first." This new psychologist I guess was referred to me by my old one. I stopped seeing her about three years ago because she retired. My appointment's on Monday, and I'm not exactly looking forward to it...I've still been on the fence about getting an official diagnosis of Asperger's Syndrome. I really don't know what's going to happen... :/

Last night I got inspired to write a fanfiction based off of the Moonwalker film. It comes from the Speed Demon part. It's probably not necessary to have seen that movie to understand my story, but it probably helps. I really do like the way it turned out. I think it's cute. Here's the story

( Michael and Spike )

Episode 4 of Tales of Monkey Island is out now. So I have a new video. A very short one, but it's still very funny. This is truly the best and only way to get out of jail if you're posing as your own lawyer. I haven't advanced any further than this part yet. I'm predicting this episode is going to be tough for some reason, but perhaps a new favorite as well.



Fungus anyone?

Halloween kind of sucked. For the past few months I've become in a different state of mind that's leaving me feeling disconnected from my family. I have changed at a different level/wavelength to them. So knowing they are not at the same level leaves me feeling empty and alone. It's sort of a more enlightened state. I just feel like I want to escape and go to the place in which I really belong. I think that place is beyond earth right now, but I believe I will get there someday.

It's time to wake up.

It's hard to believe how out of touch people are about what's going on in the world, until you are confronted with it firsthand...

But seriously This is It was absolutely amazing, and funny, and phenomenal, and unbelievable. It's easily the best movie of all year. Of all year! Michael is in top form. The best I've ever seen. It isn't sad or anything. The best thing is that it really shows the real Michael, as a professional genius and as the sweet, kind, and funny person he is. I wish for everyone to see it. The whole world needs to see it, so go see it!

Halloween is tomorrow, but it doesn't feel like it. I think my parents are planning on doing something, like inviting our neighbors Eric and Donna over. Grammy might come over too. I don't know. I really wish I had a fedora + white glove + jacket right now. Well there's always this



:D

I just got back from seeing This is It. It was absolutely jaw dropping, and very very surreal. Oh god. Now I'm in a daze. I can't think straight. :( Why?!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Finished Moonwalk last night. Wow. Now I'm sad all over again. I wish he had written another autobiography (it was written in 1988), or at least extended this one, but it was hard enough getting him to write this one in the first place. It was Jackie Kennedy that actually convinced him to do it, and he had help. He didn't write it all on his own. He did talk more about himself at the end. I was extremely touched by it all. I just continue to think about how I have several things in common with him. I wish if he had had some kind of alternative life I could really be friends with him. *sigh* I'm in love all over again.

Going to start rereading The Hobbit by Tolkien now. We're going to be discussing it on my fantasy book club.

I'm reading Moonwalk right now. Actually I don't have much left to go, but it's really good. It seems to be more about Michael's musical making process rather than actually about himself. Although I don't know why I expected it to be different. Of course it is partly about himself as well, but mostly about the music. I'm just amazed at how he does it, and the way how he describes what his songs are like to him, for instance in this passage about "Everybody":

"'Everybody' is more playful than 'Off the Wall' dance tunes, with Mike McKinney propelling it like a plane turning and bearing down. The background vocals suggest 'Get on the Floor's' influence, but Quincy's sound is deeper, like you're in the eye of the storm--our sound was more like going up the glass elevator to the top floor while looking down, rising effortlessly."

I'm not even sure I know what he's talking about in that description there, but he obviously does or he wouldn't be the genius that he is. Who can talk about music in that way, other than a musical genius? :) I'm just blown away.

I changed my userpic to Zombie Michael for Halloween. :) I actually did a drawing of this exact picture a couple of weeks ago. It turned out ok, better than I thought it would actually. And considering I'm pretty terrible at drawing people, definitely faces, then I'd say that's quite good.

Going to see "This is It" on Wednesday. I'm really excited about that, but I think I will be feeling some mixed emotions afterward. :(

We went to Disneyland today. We had a really fun time, well at least I did. The crowds weren't too bad. My mom lost her sunglasses on the Indiana Jones ride because she had left them on her head. What a dope. I made sure to tell her this. :P We went to lost and found later and she filled out a form of what they looked like. If Disney finds them, then they will mail them to us for free.

Also we got in the front row on Thunder Mountain, which I took advantage of by sliding into my mom on the turns. I squished her lol. We were laughing so hard, but I guess I was being a bit rough. :/

Like I said, I had a fun time, but my mom was really exhausted from all the walking and whining a bit. I would think it would be no problem though considering what we went through in D.C.

I was being a bit devious today. >:)

The other day we went out to lunch with Grammy. She told us she looked deformed from her eye surgery, but she was definitely not deformed. Her right eye was a little puffy, that's all. She looked fine. She still has to have the other eye fixed next week, but soon she will be seeing really well.

Yesterday, my mom was showing me some old photos I had never seen before of when she was a kid. I swear I'm like a clone of her when she was a kid. She gave me a magnifying glass to look at them and said "Now who's that in that photo?" "Me." I said. "And in this one?" "Me." lol. I guess I can't really say I was adopted or an alien now.

I'm back from vacation. I had a pretty decent time. Of course it was really just a trip where we went and saw things we didn't see last time.

Friday we didn't do anything because we got there late.

On Saturday we went to the National Gallery of Art and thus began the strenuous amount of walking.

On Sunday it felt like we were walking all over the place in D.C. We went to the Jefferson Memorial first, which was a looong walk. Then we walked back to the reflecting pool. In March, there was no water in it, but this time there was. Then we walked over to the White House and heard this large crowd so we walked down to Pennyslvania Ave. and there was this major gay rights march going on. So we sat there and watched it. It was really interesting and we had never seen a protest before. Then we decided to hop the Subway over to the Supreme Court because my dad hadn't seen it. But then once again we heard the crowd in front of the Capitol building. We caught up with the gay marriage protesters again. We were thinking maybe Obama was going to speak there so we went over, but it was someone else speaking. There were thousands of people gathered there on Capitol Hill. We even saw Cynthia Nixon (from Sex and the City) speak. It was a huge deal. So, that was the most interesting event of that day.

On Monday, it was the start of my dad doing his business meetings, so my mom and I went on our own. We went to the National Zoo. At the subway stop there we rode up what I call the "Escalator From Hell." This thing was literally like 4 stories tall. It was very scary and freaky to ride. Definitely not for the acrophobic. The zoo itself was pretty nice. Bigger than my own crappy Santa Ana Zoo, but smaller than the San Diego Zoo. We saw some cool animals there. I got a stuffed Orangutan as a souvenir. I love the Orangutans. :)

On Tuesday, my mom and I went to the Bureau of Engraving and Printing (where they make all the money). We had to wait an hour and a half in line. Good thing it was free. I don't think it would be worth it if we had to pay. The whole printing process is really complicated.

On Wednesday, our last day. We kind of ran out of things to do, but we decided to show my dad the "Escalator From Hell" and then we went to China Town for lunch. You really get a feel for the inner city culture there.

That was about it. We stayed in Old Town Alexandria, VA like we did last time. My favorite restaurant is this fancy place called Vermillion. They have amazing amazing food. I call it the "Heaven Restaurant" because the food is really heavenly. When we went there I had roasted chicken with kale (kinda like spinach, but better) and polenta (corn based pasty thing) and grapes. So yeah it's basically delicacies like that.

But after that I was so ready to go home. I was so tired from walking so much. By Tuesday my calf muscles were in such excruiciating pain that I couldn't really walk on them anymore. I was basically limping (not putting much weight on my left leg) in order to make the pain more tolerable. It was bad. Glad I don't have to walk so much anymore.

This may be my last update before I leave for D.C. on Friday. Looks like there might be rain forecast there though unfortunately. :( Looking forward to riding the subway again.

Today Grammy starts having cataract surgery on her eyes. She's having one of them done today. Her vision is extremely bad. She really shouldn't have been driving. I tell you one time I was at her house and she was taking me home after I had done some work for her. Knowing she had cataracts and trying to drive me home scared me out of my wits. Now she might come out of these surgeries with better than 20/20 vision. According to her though, having the surgery marks her last days, the end of her life. She's one of those people that if she was hooked up on life support she would just tell us to pull the plug. :P

Well I guess I'm off then. Be back in about a week.

Mmmm...that's a tasty ass right there. :P

Like this song

Can you feel it,
Can you feel it,
Can you feel it

If you look around
The whole world's coming together now, babe

Can you feel it,
Can you feel it,
Can you feel it

Feel it in the air,
The wind is taking it everywhere, yeah

Can you feel it,
Can you feel it,
Can you feel it

All the colors of the world should be
Lovin’ each other wholeheartedly
Yes, it’s all right
Take my message to your brother and tell him twice
Spread the word and try to teach the man
Who is hating his brother,
When hate won’t do, hoo
‘cuz we’re all the same,
yes the blood inside of me is inside of you

Now tell me can you feel it,
(Hee)can you feel it,
can you feel it

Now tell me
can you feel it,
can you feel it,
can you feel it, yeah yeah, uhh

Sing aloud,
because we want to make a crowd, yeah
touch a hand sing,
a sound so pure salvation rings,

tell me can you feel it,
can you feel it,
can you feel it, yeah yeah , hoo

can you feel it, hee
can you feel it, ooo oooooo
can you feel it

All the children of the world should be
loving each other wholeheartedly,
yes it's alright,
take my message to your brother and tell him twice,
take the news to the marching men,
who are killing their brothers when death won't do, hee
'cuz were all the same
yes the blood inside of me is inside of you,

now tell me can you feel it,
tell me can you feel it,
can you feel it, hee

can you see what's goin' down,
can you feel it in your bones,
can you feel it, hee

yeah yeah, hoo

Every breath you take
Is someone’s death in another place
('nother place, 'nother place, 'nother place)
Every healthy smile
Is hunger and strife to another child
('nother child, 'nother child,)
But the stars do shine
In promising salvation, is near this time
(Near this time)
Can you feel it now
So brothers and sisters show me know how
Now tell me, can you feel it,
Tell me can you feel it,
Can you feel it, hey hey, hoo, (talk)-(goin' down)
can you see what's goin' down
open up your mi- hi-hi hind,

All the children of the world should be,
loving each other wholeheartedley, hoo
yes it's alright
take my message to your brother and tell him twice,(Haaa ha)
tell the news to the marching men
who are killing their brothers when death won't do, hee
yes we're all the same
yes the blood inside my veins is inside of you,

now tell me can you feel it,
can you feel it,
can you feel it

(can you,can you,can you feel it yeah) Can you feel it
(can you feel it)can you feel it
(can you feel it)can you feel it.